It was just a minute ago,
I learnt how to fly,
Embracing love in the sky...

My heart thought,
I'd be free without pain,
When I'm up so high...

Thrusting my every bit of strength,
To reach the heavens,
Where there'd be only you and i...

But the days came with confusion and bitterness...

It was just a minute ago,
I started believing the very existence of love,
You weren't holding on anymore...
You couldn't think straight no more,
And happiness was shoved aside...

It was just a minute ago,
Our world was breaking apart,
You threw words to break my heart...
Love slipped, Shame fits...

It was just a minute ago,
I got up from my bed,
Wiping the tears streaming down my face...
Mortified love,
Aimless race,
Could've cause me a lifetime of despair...

<8aug05>

A story has to be made,
Before its given a title;
An ending there must be,
Before a beginnning;
A value determined,
Piceless became valuable;
A drop of tear,
darkness exposed to light;
A bloodshed war,
Strong spirits rise;
A long deep breath,
confusion settles itself;
A roaring thunder,
Silence take over;
A beautiful song,
Gathers all tongues as one;

A drop of opprtunity,
Be the centre of unity.

<9aug05>

I'm no more existing in your mind.
No more memories to find.
I'm missing a shadow...
The one i fell upon for the first time.

Before it began, you were long gone.
Wish to die, than to face hell alone.
I couldn't hide my weariness...

<8aug05>

First mistke,

Trusted a total stranger

For love...

Remembering myself walking aimlessly

On the streets of boredom..

Met a fatal opportunity,

Fell towards misery.

Heartbreak...

Drove the negatives out of me.

Selfish, senseless,

Emotional, sensitive...

Led myself into simplicity.

<1aug05>

We've slowed down the pace,
giving up this race...
We're much more sober now.

Guess, the end was too far away.
We couldn't find the words to say.
We were standing in the way.
Where the world's pushing in
the same direction...
Some broke down,
Some carried on;
There's no space for us to lay.
So little time, so much to decide.

No path is ever straight.
Nothing's certain but,
We can definitely choose our fate.

<28july05>

I'm not a healthy person,
Living in this wasteland.
Picture a prison, with your heart
Caged inside...

Breathe in what's dead,
what's depressing...
Cold blooded faces smirking at me,
Poison kisses chanting away my sanity...
I'm behind solid bars.

A desperate desire...
To ever feel the scent of
what's laid outside of my world
Again.
Distraught by the screams and cries of my hope,
as it sank down into the darkness.
It's so hard to help myself
not to break down in this place...

I was already dead within.
My soul...
Left here singing.

Choose to repent.

<1may05>

On The 14th Day

I wont let you fall alone...

Because of what she did,
I learnt to cry only in the dark.
To carry myself up,
To care less of my own wounds...
For they worth no attention.

I learnt to hold on when every one gives up;
To let go when every one gets on;
To love no matter what, when or why;
To be strong and ever ready to lift another load..

But i can never gripe that no one can share mine~
<20april05>

It's been so long...
Since i trip myself like this.
One second feels like a thousand years.
It does feel good to let it all out sometimes.

No matter how hard i try,
I couldn't erase the load my heart had to bear.
I know my beginnings, i know my ends

People will understand... One day.
<15april05>

I'm faraway... Miles away...
So weary.
Don't know what to say.
Just wanna be myself again.

What am i waiting for...
It couldn't be you.
I don't feel like myself no more.
I changed and i just can't ignore
the way you look at me...
I've told myself before,
these feelings come n gone.
and it held my heart from falling.
I am strong...
Love should be good.
I will carry on... <7april05>

A Taste of Heartbrokenness

Gave in to this feeling,
Tasted a part of its bitterness,
And it's already killing me.
I can feel weakness crawling in me...
But i asked for it.
The joy of experiencing what i've yearned for
will soon be overwhelmed by sadness.

I know you feel it too...
But i've lost all words to defend for myself.
This ain't no song or inspiration...
But an unnecessary torture i get.

Couldn't reject nor deny the pain consuming me,
thus, i agreed .. again. <28mac05>

People...
they just don't want to hear your story.
they don care.
When its hard being in this place
with this kinda feeling.
Very few tried to understand,
nor tried to care.
Guess i shouldn't try so hard myself.

All that i've bottled up inside,
will remain as it is...
In my world,
I'll wait.
<9mar05>

The Beginning Of Weird Emotions

When we found something special in each other,
We tend to know more about each other.
When we get along well,
To the love pit is where we fell.

Exchanging pieces of our hearts,
Came responsibilities..
But we're happy. For the moment.

Day by day, i can't believe
I still feel empty.
My old soul flew back to me,
telling me it all was'nt reality.
<6mar05>

Tellin A Lie

Im telling another lie,
wish i could stop it now.
whatever loss and regrets,
soon will be mine to bear...
to lose trust from everyone,
to feel bad for what i've done.

Time given to repent has already come and gone...
Im lost in this situation
Cause i can't get it out of my mind.

I've lose control over my life,
I fell and hurt myself
Because i didn't walk straight in line
A lie lingers...
guilt haunts...

I know what i want,
i yearn for it...
Now that i have what i wanted,
i had to die for it...

To think about all the good times i could have,
All the freedom that i lack,
Happy moments to mend my stress...
I was hoping to get no more less.
For once i feel special,
Free at last...
But what i see now was just a tiny hole...
Before i realize
It was a great deep trap.

Devil i have met,
No more suicide will i attempt.
Lesson learnt was to tell no more lies,
so that i can lift my head up high.

(Im telling another lie)
(wish i could stop it now)

and i did...
<8jan05>

New Year

The breeze of January walked pass me,
Yet i still don't feel what i should feel,
I can't see what's comin ahead...
Everything's been the same old same.

Changes are lyin ahead,
Knew i had to be ready for it,
Bring me along,
Towards the new life i've come so far to live.
<2jan05>