Tellin A Lie

Im telling another lie,
wish i could stop it now.
whatever loss and regrets,
soon will be mine to bear...
to lose trust from everyone,
to feel bad for what i've done.

Time given to repent has already come and gone...
Im lost in this situation
Cause i can't get it out of my mind.

I've lose control over my life,
I fell and hurt myself
Because i didn't walk straight in line
A lie lingers...
guilt haunts...

I know what i want,
i yearn for it...
Now that i have what i wanted,
i had to die for it...

To think about all the good times i could have,
All the freedom that i lack,
Happy moments to mend my stress...
I was hoping to get no more less.
For once i feel special,
Free at last...
But what i see now was just a tiny hole...
Before i realize
It was a great deep trap.

Devil i have met,
No more suicide will i attempt.
Lesson learnt was to tell no more lies,
so that i can lift my head up high.

(Im telling another lie)
(wish i could stop it now)

and i did...
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