The Last Touch

How can you say i don't love you
How can you say... I don't care
I'd always look to you
When i'm down
You were always there
I need you now
But you're no where to be found
I want you to hear me say.

<21april07>

Look To The... Everlasting

I was broken down again
Nothin done was ever enough
I gave in and darkness came
I felt like givin up...

You... came to lie next to me.
How can i... not be touched by
Your peace

So i look to You...
I look to Your love.
I look to Your spirit
I look to the everlasting.

<25feb07>

I can't remember exactly the moment
That made me feel that way.
But i was sure, it was those familiar feelings i always have
when i was facing a dead end.
What's a dead end...
A path u chose either out of a positive or negative choice
You poured out efforts in every step u take
One step seemed like a lifetime of lesson learnt
Unfortunately,
Or for me, Amazingly,
We'd still wind up on this platform of immobility
Weariness, Exhaustion,
Torn apart...
Your dead end.

Psalms 23
" The Lord is my shepherd, I shall never lack.
He lies with me in the greens. Leadin me beside quiet streams."

It may mean nothin to me, but it made my every thing.
So, here you are,
Standin beneath yourself
Feelin all hopeless and weak
Why're you here..?
Why're you lookin at... only what binds you here?

Have you seen it all?
Have you been through it all?
^^ Look outside of where you are.
It's okay to fall and feel pain.
Rest in it,
Instead of struggling to get up.
Learn from what you never wanted to see.
Darkness is not the end.
There's still light.
Look to the everlasting.
Look to what's infinite
Beyond your limitations
Once you saw what's ahead of you,
Your dead end will lead you
To another whole new journey
In life. Again.

Aint No Other Man But YOu~

The 'cutezie"

The "co0liez..!!

The 'sillyzie~!!

The "seXAyz...@@

The 'eEkiez..."

The "eEryzie....~~

Yea~~ Happy Birthday to my bROTher!
His goonna get soO pissed if he sees his picS loaded, publisheD to aLMOst the whole world
without his permissionezz! Xb
Wahahaha! Love ya man!


Happy Birthday... Hehe! I bakED HIm a cakEE!

Black White Town...

Ooh... Bring me back

The usual rain... The familiar tears.
Yeah its you.. It was always you.

Now, i'm tryin to cut myself
with the old songs...
Reopen my wounds
To bleed and feel nothin for you.
Yeah its you.. It was always you.

Oh... Bringin me back
To the black white town
Oh... I know this sound
That used to break me down

Now, i'm down... under you.
Breathe on me. Your words of accusation
Dissatisfaction.. So depressing.
Oh yeah its you... It was always you.

Oh.. Break me down
But i won't give in
No... Break me down
I'm not givin in.
Not givin in.

Oh... I won't let you bring me back.
To black white town
Oh... I'll forget this sound.
It'll never break me down.

<23feb07>

What Is It About Valentinez...?

Catholic Origins

The legend of St. Valentine is not absolutely clear, which is also why we refer to this history as "legend." One legend portrays him as a priest who refused the Roman Emperor Claudius II's law, ordering that young men remained single. It is argued that Claudius II did this to grow his army, believing that married men did not make for good soldiers. The priest Valentine, however, secretly performed marriage ceremonies for young Catholic men. When Claudius found out about this, he had Fr. Valentine arrested and thrown in jail. Claudius had meetings with Fr. Valentine and grew fond of him and even attempted to get Fr. Valentine to convert to the Roman paganism which he practiced. Instead, Fr. Valentine refused and attempted to convert Claudius to the Catholic faith. This enraged Claudius, and he sentenced Valentine to death. While imprisoned, one of the jailors had a blind daughter, whom he brought to the jail often, and she spoke at length to Fr. Valentine. Just before he was put to death, he sent her a small card and signed it, "From your Valentine."

Another story has it that while Fr. Valentine was imprisoned, people would leave him little notes, folded up and hidden in cracks in the rocks around his cell. He would find them and offer prayers for them.

Either way, the origin of the modern "Valentine Card" came from notes either to or from Fr. Valentine while he was in prison.

Fr. Valentine was put to death on February 14, 270 AD (some sources say 269, others 273 AD).

Gosh valentinez mmg lotsa' activities... Well im out with the girls again. As usual~ we took shotz of ourselvesss [ they kata m'sian nex top model wor] Hahaha[me excluded lar..]

And that's my Ice creaM juz to get thru the nite... Well, whoever said Valentinez dAy are only for the "boyfren-girlfren"z ^^ I bought chocolatez for my Mom, I gave my Dad the worst day of his lifE, I drove my brothers craZy andd i hung out with my frenz... It was my best 'first' V'day celebration ever~ I guess. And hopin for a better one nex year.

I Shall Not Lack

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not lack..."
Psalm 23

And indeEd, i shalll not lack! Heeehee ^^ Got another flower todAY. Well it was actually a minor requez til' it was seriuzly taken heed of by tat lil brat... HAha *u* I luv mEsel~f
















ALRIteee.... Thats all for the "mE's. ITS TiME FOr AVRil RomAna lAVignE~~ Here's her album cover for "The Best Damn Thing" which is the damn best thing everrr that's gonna rock parta' my lifE. ReleaZin APriL 17 2007'!!! OOOHHHhhh Her tracks... SooO awesome.

• "Contagious"
• "Everything Back But You"
• "Girlfriend"
• "I Can Do Better"
• "I Don't Have To Try"
• "Innocence"
• "Keep Holding On"
• "You Make Me So Hot"
• "Runaway"
• "The Best Damn Thing"
• "When You're Gone"

Valentine Fell In

OOkkk what?? Lollipops make goOd "flowers" too mah!! They suree smells goodd~ HAhaha!

Yeah~ I had those moments...

But todayyyyy!!! I ate noodles+halfegg(didnt know where the other half went)+mushrooms=lunch aLOne ^^ wee~

Still Walkin...

Takin a look at my scar
What was it, still lives in me
I've already come so far.
What remained... Still lives in me.

Don't know why i love to play
With insecurities everyday
I'm so used livin this way..
But, i never want it to be...

I'm walkin on... walkin away
See my sorrow have its way

I used to love to look at you...
Coz all i see is not the truth.
But now i'm begging, begging. Beg myself
I just wanna leave..
Oh... I never want it to be









Takin a look at my scar.
What was it... Don' exist. No more.
I've already come so far...
What remained. Is only me.

Fly... fly away

Fallen Angel

January's Kiss

Let's just say...
I'd kiss my way out of le blues.
Mélancolique...
That was me.

A soft knock on my door
You came in and held me closely in your arms
You say sorry, that you'll change

I'm constantly filled with the empty promises
you make.
Bearing it since childhood...
One lil hug won't pull it off...
You can never erase the past on my shoulders.

What i always wanted from you,
You'll never offer...
I have already stopped hoping
In wishes that'll never come true.

How can you tear me down...
And say you love me.
How can you love me...

I hate...

<30dec06'>

What is painful rejection...

I long for the reasons
You understand but
Give no concern.

From a distance,
I know you heard the noises
But you'll never, ... Never
See me...
Bleeding behind those walls.

The pain...
Even i couldn't feel it now.
My fingers went numb.

You never came...

I'll never let you see...
The real part of me.

Leaving...
I'm leavin this season
Leaving~

Accompanied by an unknown anthem
I'm walkin tall, Headin forward
I'm carryin on...
Gonna be changing
What i use to put on myself
Distress can never keep up...
But joy does.

Feelin the pain urging within me,
Was totally covered in darkness
Always under the rain...

As i turned to look back...
That was the beginning

Talking to my presence.

<27dec06'>

Lookin into the mirror
Again, i shed these
Worthless tears


How can one's cry...
So soft, so fragile
Yet broken and crushed inside

I hate myself...
I love myself...

Speaking with... no sound~

The season of my grieve upon you
Is now over...
Its last words gave me a mark of hope
That i can actually... be happy

But being with me still,
Is the grieving soul that
I've nurtured in the past.

Isolate me...
Possessing me...
Your love for me is hurting me

Within me,
Grasped sorrows from history.
I'm unaware but i know
The emptiness inside...

Isolate me,
Tormenting me,
Oh how i want to fight for me.

Lookin at the brighter side as my journey begins,
Thought you'd be the one i shared it with.
Strolling down the streets.

Watching people around caught in
their own thoughts,
i'm here stuck with you.

I don't wanna fall back on uncertainty
Look, i'm so much better off without all the
unreal emotions...

<8nov06'>

Grow up... grow out of this
devastating state
Leave the hopeless dreams
this hopeless realm.
i love you.

I have no directions for my heart.
For i'll be leaving...
leaving this hopeless realm.

Find my place in the light
Hope... is restored in my sight
I'm hopin to find new desires for
my heart.

I just don't wanna wither away...
Not just like that.

I love you.

This love was not dedicated to anyone specific, but myself.

<1nov06'>

Broken Soul

Desolation beneath the blanket,
Lost under the rain
Defeated on the floor
Dying in pain... all unseen

I wish i was never one of them..

Isolated. Beaten by the silence.
Within my whisper...
Lies a devastated cry

But it's all unheard.

Broken soul...
I will be there for you.
Only pain can ease my sorrows.

With my heart, i swear
I will mend...
Oh, broken soul
Just don't give in.

This is self depredation

I cannot let the darkness taunt my broken soul...

No words now, could defend for you
Solitude you belong to.
Oh... i grief for you.

Spare my life oh broken soul...
Coz' only pain can ease my sorrows.

Now i swear, let me go.
One step to the light
I'll mend you...!
I'll fix you...!

<27oct06'>/<31oct06'>

Holding on to rejection .
- I cried, I was stupid -
Constantly defeated by false hope.
It was all well in the beginning.
But turned devil in the end...
Not that i did not expect it .
Just givin my last of the lasts
of strength... to try to hope
oh. How i enjoy and hate the pain .

You looked at me, but didn't bother.
You listened but... you didn't care.
Sanity overwhelmed by emotions.

beauty can only be seen in pain.
Thats me. Tragic. To be so dead for nothin..
Dried up. I love... pain.